Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
Time marches on....and trips occasionally.
Well on a lighter post, [with much less philosophy] second semester is going pretty well. I am working at a retail store at the moment and the tedious job of folding large amounts of clothes is balanced by the cool people who work there and interesting experiences.
I have recently picked up guitar...well let me rephrase that. I have started to learn how to play the guitar, but I don't actually have one yet. Minor setback.
While I am so far from in love right now and not ready for any relationship whatsoever, I am impatiently waiting for "something" to happen like it usually does. My luck lately has not been the greatest, sadly, and I am not one to admit publicly my relationship woes, so people who know me and read this KNOW it is bad.
In a nutshell, school is going better, life is good, but of course it could be better, and it is damn cold outside. The snow is getting to me. It has basically sabotages my last two weekends.
I have recently picked up guitar...well let me rephrase that. I have started to learn how to play the guitar, but I don't actually have one yet. Minor setback.
While I am so far from in love right now and not ready for any relationship whatsoever, I am impatiently waiting for "something" to happen like it usually does. My luck lately has not been the greatest, sadly, and I am not one to admit publicly my relationship woes, so people who know me and read this KNOW it is bad.
In a nutshell, school is going better, life is good, but of course it could be better, and it is damn cold outside. The snow is getting to me. It has basically sabotages my last two weekends.
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Wonderment
Idealism....
Something we all strife to reach, yet are always short of the peak; just a few feet from the crag, in which we can pull ourselves up to our absolute potential. However, as with mountains, our ideal selves are always changing, whether it be slow erosion or a swift avalanche. So how do we choose to fail?
The Human is always searching for new goals. When you peel off the superficial lining of the human psyche, you will discover that we can never be truly happy with ourselves, as we are constantly creating new expectations for conscious- higher plateaus for our mountains. Maslow's theory on Idealism is truly a mystery. Humans want to become their potential, but underneath the skin of the conscious desires lies a need to achieve a greater piece of mind.
The painter who paints masterpieces that gain display at the Louvre discovers that his talent his no longer makes him happy. He believes he was born with one purpose, but his sudden hatred for his art only leads to depression and his depression only weakens his reputation. Eventually he becomes emotionaly nothing, as he has not yet understood that Humans are constantly changing individuals. What I am stating is that we should not be confined to our talents. We should learn as much as we can and look past our God-given talents. Sadly, the painter should have moved on.
Take chances and be curious, but understand that individual perfection is a paradox, as no soul on this planet has achieved it and thus, don't strife for it. Bathe in the waters of your individuality, do what you love, and don't be confided to your potentials. Perhaps I am wrong, maybe there are a handful of perfect-beings out there whom are no longer curious. No longer attaining goals. No longer fulfilling themselves with their accomplishments. I hope I am wrong.
Being perfect would suck.
Something we all strife to reach, yet are always short of the peak; just a few feet from the crag, in which we can pull ourselves up to our absolute potential. However, as with mountains, our ideal selves are always changing, whether it be slow erosion or a swift avalanche. So how do we choose to fail?
The Human is always searching for new goals. When you peel off the superficial lining of the human psyche, you will discover that we can never be truly happy with ourselves, as we are constantly creating new expectations for conscious- higher plateaus for our mountains. Maslow's theory on Idealism is truly a mystery. Humans want to become their potential, but underneath the skin of the conscious desires lies a need to achieve a greater piece of mind.
The painter who paints masterpieces that gain display at the Louvre discovers that his talent his no longer makes him happy. He believes he was born with one purpose, but his sudden hatred for his art only leads to depression and his depression only weakens his reputation. Eventually he becomes emotionaly nothing, as he has not yet understood that Humans are constantly changing individuals. What I am stating is that we should not be confined to our talents. We should learn as much as we can and look past our God-given talents. Sadly, the painter should have moved on.
Take chances and be curious, but understand that individual perfection is a paradox, as no soul on this planet has achieved it and thus, don't strife for it. Bathe in the waters of your individuality, do what you love, and don't be confided to your potentials. Perhaps I am wrong, maybe there are a handful of perfect-beings out there whom are no longer curious. No longer attaining goals. No longer fulfilling themselves with their accomplishments. I hope I am wrong.
Being perfect would suck.
Sunday, December 03, 2006
There is a man who has a farm, and his whole livelihood depends on his horse to plow the field. One day he is out plowing and suddenly the horse drops dead. The people of the town say "That's very unfortunate." And the man says, "We'll see."
A few days later somebody feels sorry for him and gives him a horse for a gift. The townspeople say, "You're a lucky man. And the man says, "We'll see."
A couple of days later the horse runs away and everybody says, "You poor guy." And the man says, "We'll see."
A few more days go by and the horse returns with a second horse and everybody says, "What a lucky guy." And the man says, "We'll see."
The man had never had two horses before, so he and his son decided to go riding, and the boy falls off one of the horses and breaks a leg. The townspeople say, "Poor kid." And the man says "We'll see."
The next day the militia comes into town grabbing young men for the army, but they leave the boy behind because he has a broken leg. Everybody says, "What a lucky kid." And the man says, "We'll see."
--Dr. Bernie Siegel
The world I am trying to understand is one in which men think they want one thing and then upon getting it, find out to their dismay that they don’t want it nearly as much as they thought or don’t want it at all and that something else, of which they were hardly aware, is what they really want.
--Albert Hirschman
A few days later somebody feels sorry for him and gives him a horse for a gift. The townspeople say, "You're a lucky man. And the man says, "We'll see."
A couple of days later the horse runs away and everybody says, "You poor guy." And the man says, "We'll see."
A few more days go by and the horse returns with a second horse and everybody says, "What a lucky guy." And the man says, "We'll see."
The man had never had two horses before, so he and his son decided to go riding, and the boy falls off one of the horses and breaks a leg. The townspeople say, "Poor kid." And the man says "We'll see."
The next day the militia comes into town grabbing young men for the army, but they leave the boy behind because he has a broken leg. Everybody says, "What a lucky kid." And the man says, "We'll see."
--Dr. Bernie Siegel
The world I am trying to understand is one in which men think they want one thing and then upon getting it, find out to their dismay that they don’t want it nearly as much as they thought or don’t want it at all and that something else, of which they were hardly aware, is what they really want.
--Albert Hirschman
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Looking Beyond
I find myself looking more, and more at objects of beauty. I used to take some things for granted. An autumn leaf; a rusting bridge over a burbling creek; stars in the country sky.
Next time you see what you consider nature, forget what you are told about what beauty is. Forget what you even think is beauty. Abstract yourself. Then, imagine what it would be like if you never saw that object of nature; how your life would be.
Would you miss it?
To be a child again...to see the world all over again with just curiosity, not knowledge. What have we been missing all this time?
Next time you see what you consider nature, forget what you are told about what beauty is. Forget what you even think is beauty. Abstract yourself. Then, imagine what it would be like if you never saw that object of nature; how your life would be.
Would you miss it?
To be a child again...to see the world all over again with just curiosity, not knowledge. What have we been missing all this time?
Monday, November 06, 2006
Yep
Well I am home today because I am not feeling too hot. I have been really tired lately and I have been sleeping a ton with no success. So it seems I keep making the same mistakes in life that I always have been making. I worry about miniscule things and I seem to harm my relationships [in my mind] with these things I worry about. Sometimes I just don't understand myself. 3 weeks ago it was an axiety attack over something I knew was ok. Last week I was just selfish for certain reasons, in which I could not control and most recently, I got jealous because of something I knew would never happen. I have also been a hypocrite, showing the same emotions that I worry about in others. Now, I am just ashamed of my anxiety problems and even though friends are telling me everything is alright, it does not help my feeling for myself. I don't have low self-esteem by anymeans, I just don't understand this disorder. I need someone to talk to because I am tired of hiding behind the masquarade that everything is alright, because it isn't. This is my most personal blog post so far and I am sure that it will worry some people and my intentions are not to get attention, but to let it all out. I have two blogs and this is a copy/paste entry from my other one. The one noone will ever see.
-Sarah, You are so dear to me. I care about you more than any other person. Sometimes even more than myself. You are a point of light to me. I have learned so much about myself through you and looking back, you are really the first person I have ever loved so dearly. If you ever think I am dog-guarding you, please know that I can't help it. Sometimes I feel that the only thing I can do is protect you. Last night was just a reality check for me. I got sick over it...I never get sick. You know this. I hate Ten O'clock. I had so much more to tell you and it just came out wrong during those texts messages. You have saved me emotionally and inspired me in so many ways. You are a strong person and seeing you hurt always kills me inside. We all get hurt sometimes, but when you get hurt...it hurts me twice as much and you are a lot stronger than I am as a person. Those pauses in our phone calls kill me. It's as if you both know what each other is thinking, we are just too afraid to say it.
It has almost been four-months and we have been through a lot together...family, time apart, and even mono. I want you to know that I would never hurt you in anyway. My heart has been broken too and I know how it feels and how difficult it is to recover from. I know we both have had mediocre pasts, but lets look towards the future. Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end. But Sarah, we are not far from done building.
~Loving you always
-Sarah, You are so dear to me. I care about you more than any other person. Sometimes even more than myself. You are a point of light to me. I have learned so much about myself through you and looking back, you are really the first person I have ever loved so dearly. If you ever think I am dog-guarding you, please know that I can't help it. Sometimes I feel that the only thing I can do is protect you. Last night was just a reality check for me. I got sick over it...I never get sick. You know this. I hate Ten O'clock. I had so much more to tell you and it just came out wrong during those texts messages. You have saved me emotionally and inspired me in so many ways. You are a strong person and seeing you hurt always kills me inside. We all get hurt sometimes, but when you get hurt...it hurts me twice as much and you are a lot stronger than I am as a person. Those pauses in our phone calls kill me. It's as if you both know what each other is thinking, we are just too afraid to say it.
It has almost been four-months and we have been through a lot together...family, time apart, and even mono. I want you to know that I would never hurt you in anyway. My heart has been broken too and I know how it feels and how difficult it is to recover from. I know we both have had mediocre pasts, but lets look towards the future. Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end. But Sarah, we are not far from done building.
~Loving you always
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Halloween Week
So I am pretty much a pain this week. I realized that I have been an ass to a few of my friends [although some for some pretty good reasons] and to my family. I can't really help it. I am stressing out with a lot of things lately. My dad is going to get his lymph node in his neck checked out today, since it has been swollen for over a month. It could be anything from cancer to a long cold. I don't know and it is worrying me. He also is on "a break" with his girlfriend, so has been really down lately. I am just on a short fuse, which is unlike me...that is how I know something is up.
I am going to stay with him this weekend and I have no idea what to expect.
On a lighter note, my Dad got tickets to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra on December 26th. Two months from now. I am really excited. I am also going to see the Chiefs\Seahawks game with him this weekend.
I am going to stay with him this weekend and I have no idea what to expect.
On a lighter note, my Dad got tickets to see the Trans-Siberian Orchestra on December 26th. Two months from now. I am really excited. I am also going to see the Chiefs\Seahawks game with him this weekend.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
So
Last week can easily be described as one of the best examples of how a good week can go downhill in the blink of an eye. I had an anxiety attack on Thursday and I am still a little shakey. The best part of all this is that my parents and family members are trying to interrogate me as to why I had it. As if that makes things better.
This friday, two of my cousins, my sister, and her boyfriend get to live in my house while my mom and her sister and my grandparents are in Las Vegas. The thing is...I am the only one who doesn't get to stay at my house. I have to stay at my dad's while they turn my home into a fun house. Fucking A-rated greatness.
This weekend I have Sarah's party and a couple of other things, such as napping outside my dad's house, so I don't think I will have to worry about being couped-up at my dad's this weekend
I am so damn-ready for summer.
I want to move to Australia.
This friday, two of my cousins, my sister, and her boyfriend get to live in my house while my mom and her sister and my grandparents are in Las Vegas. The thing is...I am the only one who doesn't get to stay at my house. I have to stay at my dad's while they turn my home into a fun house. Fucking A-rated greatness.
This weekend I have Sarah's party and a couple of other things, such as napping outside my dad's house, so I don't think I will have to worry about being couped-up at my dad's this weekend
I am so damn-ready for summer.
I want to move to Australia.
Wyatt Fucking Earp
The symbol you display on your flag was inspired by I. You found courage through my words. You and your little merry group of fucking rag-torn rebels are doing this in hoping that I approve. I have given you drive. You eat not to quell your hunger but because its one of those things you have to do to, well, stay alive.
I, on the other hand, just saw the damage you did while I was watching television and saw that you were on your way here to collect me and escort me safely to the awaiting yacht that you apparently learned to hijack from a book or Claude Speed or some bullshit so now I have to stay peering through bent kitchen window blinds hoping the fuck that you don't mistake me for an officer of the law or ice cream man or pope or religious-experience-inflicting satelite.
Seriously, we'll make it to the boat right before you fuck up and accidently propel a bullet from your shoulder slung rifle right through my goddamn chest leaving me to stare at the sky for the next 14 hours while I bleed out and hallucinate and have a conversation with my brain and have it tell me it's showing me this shit because if it doesn't I will flip right the fuck out with what reality really looks like right about now.
And you didn't even bother to ask if I wanted to go with you.
Christ shit!
I, on the other hand, just saw the damage you did while I was watching television and saw that you were on your way here to collect me and escort me safely to the awaiting yacht that you apparently learned to hijack from a book or Claude Speed or some bullshit so now I have to stay peering through bent kitchen window blinds hoping the fuck that you don't mistake me for an officer of the law or ice cream man or pope or religious-experience-inflicting satelite.
Seriously, we'll make it to the boat right before you fuck up and accidently propel a bullet from your shoulder slung rifle right through my goddamn chest leaving me to stare at the sky for the next 14 hours while I bleed out and hallucinate and have a conversation with my brain and have it tell me it's showing me this shit because if it doesn't I will flip right the fuck out with what reality really looks like right about now.
And you didn't even bother to ask if I wanted to go with you.
Christ shit!
Monday, October 09, 2006
Your Problems are everyone's problems
Choices. We all make them or don't make them. Depending on what we want usually depends on our ids, our taught wants...what we want from other people. Attention...strife...love...it all affects people. Just be sure you know how your choices will affect others before you do them. One can be too selfish...think too much of themselves and put their needs before others. Likewise, people can be too selfless. We need to take care of our own problems before tending to others.
Remember that everything you do, whether it be skipping homework, cheating on a lover, or even destroying yourself at any given pace from alcohol to suicide will deeply affect others in the long run...even the next day. This is to all the people who can't take back those choices...but probably would have by giving those choices a single, second thought.
Remember that everything you do, whether it be skipping homework, cheating on a lover, or even destroying yourself at any given pace from alcohol to suicide will deeply affect others in the long run...even the next day. This is to all the people who can't take back those choices...but probably would have by giving those choices a single, second thought.
Wake up kids
We've got the dreamers disease
Age fourteen
They got you down on your knees
So polite
We're busy still saying please
Frienemies
Who when you're down ain't your friend
Every night
We smash their mercedes benz
First we run
And then we laugh 'till we cry
But when the night is falling
And you cannot find the light
you feel your dreams are dying
Hold tight
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget we only get what we give
[I'm comin' home baby]
[You're tops, give it to me now]
Four a.m. we ran a miracle mile
We're flat broke
But hey we do it in style
The bad rich
God's flying in for your trial
But when the night is falling
And you cannot find a friend
You feel your tree is breaking
Just bend
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget
We only get what we give
This whole damn world can fall apart
You'll be ok follow your heart
You're in harms way I'm right behind
Now say you're mine
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget
We only get what we give
Don't let go
I feel the music in you
Fly high
What's real can't die
We only get what we give
You're gonna get what you give
Just dont be afraid to live
Health insurance rip off lying FDA big bankers buying
Fake computer crashes dining
Cloning while they're multiplying
Fashion shoots with Beck and Hanson
courtney love and marilyn manson
You're all fakes
Run to your mansions
Come around
We'll kick your ass in
We've got the dreamers disease
Age fourteen
They got you down on your knees
So polite
We're busy still saying please
Frienemies
Who when you're down ain't your friend
Every night
We smash their mercedes benz
First we run
And then we laugh 'till we cry
But when the night is falling
And you cannot find the light
you feel your dreams are dying
Hold tight
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget we only get what we give
[I'm comin' home baby]
[You're tops, give it to me now]
Four a.m. we ran a miracle mile
We're flat broke
But hey we do it in style
The bad rich
God's flying in for your trial
But when the night is falling
And you cannot find a friend
You feel your tree is breaking
Just bend
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget
We only get what we give
This whole damn world can fall apart
You'll be ok follow your heart
You're in harms way I'm right behind
Now say you're mine
You've got the music in you
Don't let go
You've got the music in you
One dance left
This world is gonna pull through
Don't give up
You've got a reason to live
Can't forget
We only get what we give
Don't let go
I feel the music in you
Fly high
What's real can't die
We only get what we give
You're gonna get what you give
Just dont be afraid to live
Health insurance rip off lying FDA big bankers buying
Fake computer crashes dining
Cloning while they're multiplying
Fashion shoots with Beck and Hanson
courtney love and marilyn manson
You're all fakes
Run to your mansions
Come around
We'll kick your ass in
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Needing an update
Its been 20 days since my last update, so here we go...
The world is spinning gracefully in our solar system. The stock market is up, and everyone is happy.
Really, I am doing pretty well. My grades are improving and I really couldn't ask for a better relationship right now. Yesterday I went paintballing and today, I am pretty sore.
I have not been sick in over a year, so I know when I get sick because I feel off and different. Well, I feel off and different today and I hope I am not getting what Sarah has. I can't miss school and I just refuse to be sick.
ON A LIGHTER NOTE
Gas is $1.99 in Kansas and as low as $1.94 in some Missouri areas. This probably has to do with the recent oil well findings in the Gulf. It is a good sign since Gasoline takes 6 months to process, so the companies that plan the pricings are thinking that in 6 months, they will make their proposed profit since they believe the price per barrel will be significantly lower in 6 months.
Yay
The world is spinning gracefully in our solar system. The stock market is up, and everyone is happy.
Really, I am doing pretty well. My grades are improving and I really couldn't ask for a better relationship right now. Yesterday I went paintballing and today, I am pretty sore.
I have not been sick in over a year, so I know when I get sick because I feel off and different. Well, I feel off and different today and I hope I am not getting what Sarah has. I can't miss school and I just refuse to be sick.
ON A LIGHTER NOTE
Gas is $1.99 in Kansas and as low as $1.94 in some Missouri areas. This probably has to do with the recent oil well findings in the Gulf. It is a good sign since Gasoline takes 6 months to process, so the companies that plan the pricings are thinking that in 6 months, they will make their proposed profit since they believe the price per barrel will be significantly lower in 6 months.
Yay
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Enlightenment
Keeping Our Minds Supple -- Questioning Everything
A lot of people feel threatened if they feel they are being asked to question their cherished beliefs or their perception of reality. Yet questioning is what keeps our minds supple and strong. Simply settling on one way of seeing things and refusing to be open to other possibilities makes the mind rigid and generally creates a restrictive and uncomfortable atmosphere. We all know someone who refuses to budge on one or more issues, and we may have our own sacred cows that could use a little prodding. Being open-minded means that we are willing to question everything, including those things we take for granted.
A willingness to question everything, even things we are sure we are right about, can shake us out of complacency and reinvigorate our minds, opening us up to understanding people and perspectives that were alien to us before. This alone is good reason to remain inquisitive, no matter how much experience we have or how old we get. In the Zen tradition, this willingness to question is known as beginner's mind, and it has a way of generating possibilities we couldn't have seen from the point of view of knowing something with certainty. The willingness to question everything doesn't necessarily mean we don't believe in anything at all, and it doesn't mean we have to question every single thing in the world every minute of the day. It just means that we are humble enough to acknowledge how little we actually know about the mysterious universe we call home.
Nearly every revolutionary change in the history of human progress came about because someone questioned some time-honored belief or tradition and in doing so revealed a new truth, a new way of doing things, or a new standard for ethical and moral behavior. Just so, a commitment to staying open and inquisitive in our own individual lives can lead us to new personal revolutions and truths, truths that we will hopefully, for the sake of our growth, remain open to questioning.
--Uknown
A lot of people feel threatened if they feel they are being asked to question their cherished beliefs or their perception of reality. Yet questioning is what keeps our minds supple and strong. Simply settling on one way of seeing things and refusing to be open to other possibilities makes the mind rigid and generally creates a restrictive and uncomfortable atmosphere. We all know someone who refuses to budge on one or more issues, and we may have our own sacred cows that could use a little prodding. Being open-minded means that we are willing to question everything, including those things we take for granted.
A willingness to question everything, even things we are sure we are right about, can shake us out of complacency and reinvigorate our minds, opening us up to understanding people and perspectives that were alien to us before. This alone is good reason to remain inquisitive, no matter how much experience we have or how old we get. In the Zen tradition, this willingness to question is known as beginner's mind, and it has a way of generating possibilities we couldn't have seen from the point of view of knowing something with certainty. The willingness to question everything doesn't necessarily mean we don't believe in anything at all, and it doesn't mean we have to question every single thing in the world every minute of the day. It just means that we are humble enough to acknowledge how little we actually know about the mysterious universe we call home.
Nearly every revolutionary change in the history of human progress came about because someone questioned some time-honored belief or tradition and in doing so revealed a new truth, a new way of doing things, or a new standard for ethical and moral behavior. Just so, a commitment to staying open and inquisitive in our own individual lives can lead us to new personal revolutions and truths, truths that we will hopefully, for the sake of our growth, remain open to questioning.
--Uknown
Thought of the moment
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"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed."~Albert Einstein
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006
So long...Homecoming
So, this Homecoming jazz kind of creeped up on me. I can't believe it was a month ago that I asked Sarah. I think that cheesy volleyball sign is still up. Anyways, the dance was great. Short, but great. Coming back to school was painful. I really can't stand a lot of my teachers and myself in general when it comes to academics. I am hoping things improve.
And we went paintballing again last week. It was pouring down rain the first few hours, but James, Mike, Aaron and I still managed to destroy a bunch of birthday kids. I only got shot twice out of around 8 rounds. I was so damn muddy.
And we went paintballing again last week. It was pouring down rain the first few hours, but James, Mike, Aaron and I still managed to destroy a bunch of birthday kids. I only got shot twice out of around 8 rounds. I was so damn muddy.
Monday, September 11, 2006
Cruel!
I am convinced....
That there is some elaborate scheme to make my homecoming week Hell so I am too stressed to have fun during the dance.
I had to basically mow 6 yards in two days because my grandparents and my lawn are being verticutted, which basically means that they takes soil out of the ground to let in seeds. It is pointless in a 1/2 and acre lawn...trust me. But, to do this, you need to go over it twice to get as much grass cut as you can in prep...so yes...I am tired of cutting lawns.
I quit my job two weeks ago because I got sick of my boss. Its not anything I can't rebound from. I have a pretty good supply of cash in the bank.
And academics are weak this year. My english teacher is a year from retirement and two years from death. He is horrible and I can't see the point in what he teaches, which is mainly poetic rhythems and spelling.
Paintball yesterday. I got a kill every round and only got hit once. It was pretty fun, albeit my phone is messed up from the humidity and I may need a new one.
Lets just get this year done.
That there is some elaborate scheme to make my homecoming week Hell so I am too stressed to have fun during the dance.
I had to basically mow 6 yards in two days because my grandparents and my lawn are being verticutted, which basically means that they takes soil out of the ground to let in seeds. It is pointless in a 1/2 and acre lawn...trust me. But, to do this, you need to go over it twice to get as much grass cut as you can in prep...so yes...I am tired of cutting lawns.
I quit my job two weeks ago because I got sick of my boss. Its not anything I can't rebound from. I have a pretty good supply of cash in the bank.
And academics are weak this year. My english teacher is a year from retirement and two years from death. He is horrible and I can't see the point in what he teaches, which is mainly poetic rhythems and spelling.
Paintball yesterday. I got a kill every round and only got hit once. It was pretty fun, albeit my phone is messed up from the humidity and I may need a new one.
Lets just get this year done.
Monday, August 28, 2006
School Life
So school is in full-action now.
I can't say I like it...but it gives me something to do. I am only working 3 days a week now, which is what I prefer over my Summer 5 days.
Yesterday, I went to Sarah's house for her Family reunion [Yes, I know I am not family, but trust me...she NEEDED me there. Her family is a bit...nevermind] and we got to watch fireworks & Lightning...two of my favorate things.
I also helped Sarah on her Creation story for her history class and as it turns out, God created Hello Kitty and Hello Kitty evolved from the Japanese. Who knew?
I can't say I like it...but it gives me something to do. I am only working 3 days a week now, which is what I prefer over my Summer 5 days.
Yesterday, I went to Sarah's house for her Family reunion [Yes, I know I am not family, but trust me...she NEEDED me there. Her family is a bit...nevermind] and we got to watch fireworks & Lightning...two of my favorate things.
I also helped Sarah on her Creation story for her history class and as it turns out, God created Hello Kitty and Hello Kitty evolved from the Japanese. Who knew?
Sunday, August 13, 2006
Iowa blows. Sorry
Today I went with my dad to the Ware family reunion in Iowa. It was a 2 and a half hour trip both ways and it was somewhat a waste of time in my mind. All that way for some food and handshakes...
I also repierced my left ear. It looks pretty good nowadays. I may actually keep it.
I also repierced my left ear. It looks pretty good nowadays. I may actually keep it.
Friday, August 11, 2006
Summer accomplishment, achievement, adjournment, attainment, bottom line, cease, cessation, close, closing, closure, conclusion, consequence....
...consummation, culmination, curtain, denouement, desistance, desuetude, determination, discontinuance, ending execution, expiration, expiry, finale, finis, finish, fulfillment, issue, last word, omega, outcome, payoff, perfection, realization, resolution, result, retirement, sign-off, stop, target, termination, terminus, upshot, wind-up, windup, wrap-up
So, Summer is pretty much Hasta La Vista
So, Summer is pretty much Hasta La Vista
Sarah at a Church retreat until Tuesday so I have a whole weekend to spend with my guys. A few of them have just gotten out of some relationships, so it should be an interesting weekend.
My boss is an asshole and I am sick of his shit. He doesnt need to use me as examples for what he claims, "What you shouldn't do" just because he is an ass and is jealous. He says he wants to fight me. Ok, shithead, you are an asshole and need to be executed. That doesn't help your employee's morale, saying you want to beat them up.
I decided to drop US history AP and English AP and to keep Psych 2 AP and Computer Science AP.
Looks like Weigel will have to grin and bear another year with me
int oldFart;
oldFart='Weigel';
System.out.println("See you next year " + oldFart);
Yes, java programming humor. Learn it live it love it.
My boss is an asshole and I am sick of his shit. He doesnt need to use me as examples for what he claims, "What you shouldn't do" just because he is an ass and is jealous. He says he wants to fight me. Ok, shithead, you are an asshole and need to be executed. That doesn't help your employee's morale, saying you want to beat them up.
I decided to drop US history AP and English AP and to keep Psych 2 AP and Computer Science AP.
Looks like Weigel will have to grin and bear another year with me
int oldFart;
oldFart='Weigel';
System.out.println("See you next year " + oldFart);
Yes, java programming humor. Learn it live it love it.
Monday, August 07, 2006
Hmmm
A week until my Junior Year.
Wow.
And I still have two books to read....
I am rather screwed.
Anyways, I have been with Sarah a month now. You can knock on wood all you want.
And, I am listening to Don't You Forget About Me by Simple Minds.
I can't believe it has been a month since I last saw The Breakfast Club....actually it has been like, a month and a half....that marks something personal for me, which still amazes me.
I have learned so much about myself this summer.
Wow.
And I still have two books to read....
I am rather screwed.
Anyways, I have been with Sarah a month now. You can knock on wood all you want.
And, I am listening to Don't You Forget About Me by Simple Minds.
I can't believe it has been a month since I last saw The Breakfast Club....actually it has been like, a month and a half....that marks something personal for me, which still amazes me.
I have learned so much about myself this summer.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Soooo
School starts up again in two weeks. I still have two books to read.
Tonight I am going to the Ted Nugent concert at the uptown. I will be deaf for a few days, so don't bother calling me haha.
And once again, I am broke...until Friday.
Tonight I am going to the Ted Nugent concert at the uptown. I will be deaf for a few days, so don't bother calling me haha.
And once again, I am broke...until Friday.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Androids dream of robotic sheep
Rather than discuss anything, I would like to state my state, so to speak.
I remember posting a year ago about how I was losing a lot of sleep. Well, I pull a good all nighter, followed by a gym workout, so I think I win for craziest sonbitch in the neighborhood.
No way I am working today. Screw Town Village. We have a meeting tomorrow. Tomorrow. Sunday. The day I am just ITCHING to get out of all the time. If I don't get off before 2:00, I am flipping out. The meeting is from 2:30-4:00.
Kill me, I'm here!
And I am 5'10 and a half! I grew half an inch this Summer!
There must be something in the water besides flouride. Damn, that flouride is tasty.
Also, I have 17,172 songs on my PC. 64 days of music. Basically, I have enough music to fill a 250 gig hard drive, which is quite impressive. I am a download demon.
I remember posting a year ago about how I was losing a lot of sleep. Well, I pull a good all nighter, followed by a gym workout, so I think I win for craziest sonbitch in the neighborhood.
No way I am working today. Screw Town Village. We have a meeting tomorrow. Tomorrow. Sunday. The day I am just ITCHING to get out of all the time. If I don't get off before 2:00, I am flipping out. The meeting is from 2:30-4:00.
Kill me, I'm here!
And I am 5'10 and a half! I grew half an inch this Summer!
There must be something in the water besides flouride. Damn, that flouride is tasty.
Also, I have 17,172 songs on my PC. 64 days of music. Basically, I have enough music to fill a 250 gig hard drive, which is quite impressive. I am a download demon.
Listening to: How Soon is Now by The Smiths
Basically, Morrissey is the Pope of Mope and you need to listen to more 80s Brit pop! WE ALL DO.
Thank you
Hand In Glove [BRIT POP SINGLE OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG]
Basically, Morrissey is the Pope of Mope and you need to listen to more 80s Brit pop! WE ALL DO.
Thank you
Hand In Glove [BRIT POP SINGLE OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG]
...Nothing good to say. So I won't say anything.
The Loudest Sound
by The Cure
Side by side in silcence they pass way the day
So comfortable, so habitual...and so nothing left to say
Nothing left to say
Nothing left to say
Side by side in silence his thoughts echo round
He looks upa t the sky...she looks down at the ground
Stares down at the ground
Stares down at the ground
Side by side in silence they wish for different worlds
She dreams him as a boy...he loves her as a girl
Loves her as a girl...
And side by side in silence without a single word...
It's the loudest sound
It's the loudest sound...
It's loudest sound I ever heard
by The Cure
Side by side in silcence they pass way the day
So comfortable, so habitual...and so nothing left to say
Nothing left to say
Nothing left to say
Side by side in silence his thoughts echo round
He looks upa t the sky...she looks down at the ground
Stares down at the ground
Stares down at the ground
Side by side in silence they wish for different worlds
She dreams him as a boy...he loves her as a girl
Loves her as a girl...
And side by side in silence without a single word...
It's the loudest sound
It's the loudest sound...
It's loudest sound I ever heard
Friday, July 21, 2006
Oceans Drama
Girls are simply...EVIL to each other
Yesterday at Oceans of Fun, Sarah and her friend Andrea got into a fight. Well, it was more like Andrea wanted to get in a fight about it and Sarah was rationalizing.
I guess you can't rationalize Andrea. I can't believe stoner/heavydrinker/nympho Alex dated her.
So today I picked up my nice, fat paycheck, rolled my windows down in my car [after I spent 36.56 filling it] and enjoyed the cool relief in weather.
I have work today and then, well nothing since I am a loser and have not kept track with any of my school friends. Well, ha. We'll see.
Yesterday at Oceans of Fun, Sarah and her friend Andrea got into a fight. Well, it was more like Andrea wanted to get in a fight about it and Sarah was rationalizing.
I guess you can't rationalize Andrea. I can't believe stoner/heavydrinker/nympho Alex dated her.
So today I picked up my nice, fat paycheck, rolled my windows down in my car [after I spent 36.56 filling it] and enjoyed the cool relief in weather.
I have work today and then, well nothing since I am a loser and have not kept track with any of my school friends. Well, ha. We'll see.
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
Oak Park
Oak Park...shopping for thongs...Yup.
Wait..not for me lol
I went to the mall yesterday with Becca and Sarah. They went gift shopping for Andrea and decided to pick up some other things Hehe.
We rode the Carousel. It took a ton of convincing to get Becca to ride it, but it was fun.
After that, we went to Sarah and watched Fox and Hound.
A Disney classic.
Oceans of Fun tomorrow
Wait..not for me lol
I went to the mall yesterday with Becca and Sarah. They went gift shopping for Andrea and decided to pick up some other things Hehe.
We rode the Carousel. It took a ton of convincing to get Becca to ride it, but it was fun.
After that, we went to Sarah and watched Fox and Hound.
A Disney classic.
Oceans of Fun tomorrow
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Horrrayyy
Sarah has been home for a few days now. She had a good experience in Mississippi helping people and I am proud of her for going. I would like to go help down there sometime, but I don't really have the resources to get down there. On Sunday we saw Pirates of The Carribean 2 [second time for me whoo hoo!] and got Tropical Sno, which is the drink [er, crushed ice] of the gods.
Work yesterday...not the most fun of things...
I am like sugar to old people...they love sitting down at my sections. I had the most tables again yesterday :(
Work yesterday...not the most fun of things...
I am like sugar to old people...they love sitting down at my sections. I had the most tables again yesterday :(
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Thursday, July 13, 2006
World's of Fun
Went to Worlds Of Fun today with Tim and Grant today.
Heat index was 110. Yeah ha
It was brutal.
Grant's sandels BOTH broke and he went barefoot half the day. What a Haus.
Sarah gets home in two days, whoo hoo
Heat index was 110. Yeah ha
It was brutal.
Grant's sandels BOTH broke and he went barefoot half the day. What a Haus.
Sarah gets home in two days, whoo hoo
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
Near death experience
It poured yesterday...at exactly 8 O'clock PM. I know this because it is when I left my Dad's to go to Mike's. I left when it was drizzling...I got off his street when it was a monsoon.
Taking I-435 West was a mistake.
I hydroplaned every 10 seconds, my antilock breaks were bugging, and my tires are bare. They are about 5,000 miles over their tread limit.
I got to Mike's alright...barely. I was facing a cop when I realized I didn't have my headlights on...I got lucky. Leawood cops are really nice. Ha
I saw Terminator 2 for the 10000 time...I remember seeing it when I was like, 8. Good times. Ha
Mike's dog is in a humping phase...I wasn't victim, but a certain recliner was...
and Mike's dad likes John Petrucci. What a guy hahaha
Later today I guess I am going to chipotle with Mel. Should be interesting ha. I have gone a week without chipotle...I NEED MY BURRITOS.
Taking I-435 West was a mistake.
I hydroplaned every 10 seconds, my antilock breaks were bugging, and my tires are bare. They are about 5,000 miles over their tread limit.
I got to Mike's alright...barely. I was facing a cop when I realized I didn't have my headlights on...I got lucky. Leawood cops are really nice. Ha
I saw Terminator 2 for the 10000 time...I remember seeing it when I was like, 8. Good times. Ha
Mike's dog is in a humping phase...I wasn't victim, but a certain recliner was...
and Mike's dad likes John Petrucci. What a guy hahaha
Later today I guess I am going to chipotle with Mel. Should be interesting ha. I have gone a week without chipotle...I NEED MY BURRITOS.
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
Sarah gets back in 4 days!
So I fell asleep watching the original Reeves Superman last night and missed...well...2 hours of the movie...basically all of it. I woke up at 5, crawled up the stairs to my bed and woke up 8 hours later.
I didn't take my medication today, so I was a spaz at the gym haha. Basically, I am sore.
I am going to my Dad's now. I havn't seen him in two weeks, so yeah, should be a much-needed visit.
Its official...paintball this weekend at the Dropzone. YYYEEESSSS
So I fell asleep watching the original Reeves Superman last night and missed...well...2 hours of the movie...basically all of it. I woke up at 5, crawled up the stairs to my bed and woke up 8 hours later.
I didn't take my medication today, so I was a spaz at the gym haha. Basically, I am sore.
I am going to my Dad's now. I havn't seen him in two weeks, so yeah, should be a much-needed visit.
Its official...paintball this weekend at the Dropzone. YYYEEESSSS
And my dogs....> Your dogs
Sunday, July 09, 2006
Life marches on...and trips occasionally
I woke up at 9 today for work. It was hellll.
Blondes can be dumb. This new girl at work fell for the old "Empty the hot water out of the automatic coffee maker" trick. She got about 3 five gallon buckets before she realized it was on an actual water line...sigh.
Sarah is in Mississippi for hurricane relief and I miss her. She is doing fine and the thing she has a problem with down there are some of the people she is with, ha. But, she is having a blast, which is great.
I also ate 480 Jellybellies today. I know you are jealous.
Blondes can be dumb. This new girl at work fell for the old "Empty the hot water out of the automatic coffee maker" trick. She got about 3 five gallon buckets before she realized it was on an actual water line...sigh.
Sarah is in Mississippi for hurricane relief and I miss her. She is doing fine and the thing she has a problem with down there are some of the people she is with, ha. But, she is having a blast, which is great.
I also ate 480 Jellybellies today. I know you are jealous.
Friday, July 07, 2006
Pirates
Jack Sparrow gets eaten by the Kraken.
Yup.
HAHAHAHAHA
Anyways, I saw Pirates on opening minute and got home at 4 AM. I woke up up at 11 to see Sarah before she left for Mississippi. Then I went with Mike up the River to see his girlfriend [I navigated] Micah. That was an adventure ha. I can't believe we found the place. I ate a whole pizza because Micah and Mike weren't hungry and played a horrid game of pool, losing by a centimeter on the 8-ball...the damn thing just wouldn't go in.
My mom has to work all this weekend because her work is Hell, so I feel sorry for her :(
Yup.
HAHAHAHAHA
Anyways, I saw Pirates on opening minute and got home at 4 AM. I woke up up at 11 to see Sarah before she left for Mississippi. Then I went with Mike up the River to see his girlfriend [I navigated] Micah. That was an adventure ha. I can't believe we found the place. I ate a whole pizza because Micah and Mike weren't hungry and played a horrid game of pool, losing by a centimeter on the 8-ball...the damn thing just wouldn't go in.
My mom has to work all this weekend because her work is Hell, so I feel sorry for her :(
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
The Fourth
I went to Sarah's fourth of July party last night and it was a lot of fun. I have got to say, I realllly liked my 400 bottle rocket "batteries".
The bonfire was pretty cool too.
I learned a few things
1. Mike and Phil can't throw water dynamite without burning me with A.The puncts, B.The green wicks. My ankles are covered in blisters.
2. Mike and Phil can't work bottle rocks. Mike hit him in the side with a bottle rocket her threw in the bonfire. It wealted. Phil's actually went the opposite way he threw them 70% of the time
3. Kevin can move on.
4. I love chocolate fountains and think they should be in every A. House B. School C. Church D. Car
5. Mike needs to stop driving recklessly. He A. Hydroplaned on purpose on bare tires, almost hitting the wall B. Overdrifted on the gravel, turning the car. 10 MPH more and it would have flipped the bitch.
Good times.
The bonfire was pretty cool too.
I learned a few things
1. Mike and Phil can't throw water dynamite without burning me with A.The puncts, B.The green wicks. My ankles are covered in blisters.
2. Mike and Phil can't work bottle rocks. Mike hit him in the side with a bottle rocket her threw in the bonfire. It wealted. Phil's actually went the opposite way he threw them 70% of the time
3. Kevin can move on.
4. I love chocolate fountains and think they should be in every A. House B. School C. Church D. Car
5. Mike needs to stop driving recklessly. He A. Hydroplaned on purpose on bare tires, almost hitting the wall B. Overdrifted on the gravel, turning the car. 10 MPH more and it would have flipped the bitch.
Good times.
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
Yay
These past few days have been pretty good.
Other than blowing up canisters of butane for butane lighter refills with Becker, Mike, and his dad, Rick, nothing really exciting has happened in terms of fireworks.
Wait duh. On Sunday, I went out to 165th and holmes with Mike to hang out with some of his rockhurst buddies. We blew off some 60 dollars in fireworks. They lit some brush on fire and I had to sprint to put it out. I am a hero ha. Those whole woods would have been on fire. Also, I got hit in the heel with a bottlerocket, leaving a wealt. It looks like I got hit by a BB from an airsoft gun.
Yesterday was my sister's 20th birthday. I barely remember when she was my age, jeese. I ate the majority of her icecream cake. It was good. In fact, I think I want some more.
4th of July party today at Sarah Rose's after work. I get paid time-and-a-half so I will make some 75 dollars today. Not bad.
Other than blowing up canisters of butane for butane lighter refills with Becker, Mike, and his dad, Rick, nothing really exciting has happened in terms of fireworks.
Wait duh. On Sunday, I went out to 165th and holmes with Mike to hang out with some of his rockhurst buddies. We blew off some 60 dollars in fireworks. They lit some brush on fire and I had to sprint to put it out. I am a hero ha. Those whole woods would have been on fire. Also, I got hit in the heel with a bottlerocket, leaving a wealt. It looks like I got hit by a BB from an airsoft gun.
Yesterday was my sister's 20th birthday. I barely remember when she was my age, jeese. I ate the majority of her icecream cake. It was good. In fact, I think I want some more.
4th of July party today at Sarah Rose's after work. I get paid time-and-a-half so I will make some 75 dollars today. Not bad.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
Bad person?
If you have done over 50 of these things you are a bad person
-1) smoked
-2) consumed alcohol
-3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
-5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) made out with someone of the same sex
-7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex
-8) watched porn
9) bought porn
-10) done drugs
11) taken pain killers
-12) taken someone else's prescription medicine
-13) lied to your parents
-14) lied to a friend
-15) snuck out of the house
-16) done something illegal
17) cut yourself
-18) hurt someone
-19)Intentionally hurt someone verbally
-20) seen someone die[When I was 13 I saw someone get hit by a car in New Orleans. I didn't see them get up]
-21) missed curfew[6 last month]
-22) stayed out all night
-23) eaten a carton of icecream by yourself
-24) been to a therapist
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair
-27) recieved a ticket
-28) been in a wreck
-29) been to a club
-30) been to a bar
-31) been to a wild party
-32) seen the Mardi Gras
-34) had a spring break in Florida
35) sniffed anything
36) wore black nail polish
37) wore arm bands
-38) wore t-shirts with band names
39) listened to rap
40) own a 50 cent cd
41) dressed gothic
-42) dressed prep
43) dressed punk
-44) dressed grunge[WOW good times]
-45) stole something
-46) been too drunk to remember anything
-47) blacked out
-48) fainted
49) had a crush on your neighbor
50) had someone sneak into your room
-51) snuck into some one else's room
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex
-53) been to a concert
-54) dry humped someone
55) been called a slut
-56) called someone a slut
57) installed speakers in your car
-58) broke a mirror
-59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
-60) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush
61) consider ludacris your favorite rapper
-62) seen an R rated movie in theaters
-63) cruised the mall
64) skipped school
65) had an eating disorder
-66) had an injury
-67) gone to court
68) walked out of a resteraunt without paying
-69) caught something on fire
-70) lied about your age
71) owned an apartment
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73) cheated with someone
-74) got in trouble with the police
-75) talked to a stranger
-76) hugged a stranger
77) kissed a stranger
-78) rode in the car with a stranger
79) been sexually harrassed
-80) been verbally harrassed
-81) met face to face with someone you met online[Dated them ha wow]
-82) stayed online for 12 hours straight
-83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight
-84) watched tv for 12 hours straight
-85) been to a fair
-86) been called a bad influence
-87) cursed
-88) prank called someone
-89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
-90) cheated on a test
-91) cheated on homework
-92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex
-93) been pushed into a pool
-94) played pool
-95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight
96) had a crush on someone 8 years older than you
-97) had a crush on someone younger than you
98) wear eyeliner
99) skinny dipped
100)Laughed at someone who was hurt
69
I guess I am a bad person lol
Saturday...
So today I woke up at one. Ha. I didn't mean to, I just couldn't wake up!
Then, I had a large list of "to-dos", which took a good hour and a half...
Maudie and I went to US toys to find pirate stuff for this Thursday when we see Pirates Of the Carribbean 2 the second it opens...we were dissapointed by the selection and plan to riot at an later, undisclosed time.
Then I went to Chipotle for the 4th time this week and fell asleep at Maud's only to be woken up by a blunt object...an eraser.
Then I went to a fireworks show tonight. It was pretty good. Better than I expected.
Yup, thursday is going to be the best.
Then, I had a large list of "to-dos", which took a good hour and a half...
Maudie and I went to US toys to find pirate stuff for this Thursday when we see Pirates Of the Carribbean 2 the second it opens...we were dissapointed by the selection and plan to riot at an later, undisclosed time.
Then I went to Chipotle for the 4th time this week and fell asleep at Maud's only to be woken up by a blunt object...an eraser.
Then I went to a fireworks show tonight. It was pretty good. Better than I expected.
Yup, thursday is going to be the best.
Friday, June 30, 2006
I heart the breakfast club
Wow. Today turned from the worst day of my life [1 AM] to a really great one [11PM]
Basically, people are interesting....
Anyways
So I watched the Breakfast Club for the first time with friends on Maud's new uber 42 inch plasma screen of god-lyness [I put this sucker's stand together and got free Chipotle!] and I LOVE that movie.
The only problem is that it is too real. We all "make friends" with people when our peers aren't around and don't acknowledge their existance in a social environment [ex facebook ha]
Wow I am surprised I even got out of bed today!
I managed to roll into a gas station on fumes today...barely made it in
And I bounced a check and owe $100.36 cents!
Life knows how to fuck me over hehe.
The only problem is that it is too real. We all "make friends" with people when our peers aren't around and don't acknowledge their existance in a social environment [ex facebook ha]
Wow I am surprised I even got out of bed today!
I managed to roll into a gas station on fumes today...barely made it in
And I bounced a check and owe $100.36 cents!
Life knows how to fuck me over hehe.
Monday, June 26, 2006
Hi hi hi! Mr. Deltoid!
Work!
Work!
Work!
Its owns me!
Work!
Work!
Its owns me!
I Spent 200 dollars on a membership to Prairie Life
I think it was worth it. I work my ass off at Town Village Leawood to get this cash.
I think it was worth it. I work my ass off at Town Village Leawood to get this cash.
Was supposed to have a movie night tonight with Grant, Erin, Maudie, and Caitlin, but half that crew dropped out. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas will have to wait.
We are supposed to go paintballing again this weekend. Hopefully I can scrounge enough cash for some paint and field fees.
Last time we went was a blast, minus nearly destroying my shins on the catwalk.
From left to right.
Taylor, James, Mike, Me, Aaron
We are supposed to go paintballing again this weekend. Hopefully I can scrounge enough cash for some paint and field fees.
Last time we went was a blast, minus nearly destroying my shins on the catwalk.
From left to right.
Taylor, James, Mike, Me, Aaron
Friday, March 24, 2006
The FCC and your Rights
Despite being in the news almost daily, there is a significant lack in knowledge as to what the FCC is responsible for. The Federal Communications Commission is an independent United States government agency, directly responsible to Congress. The FCC was established by the Communications Act of 1934 and is charged with regulating interstate and international communications by radio, television, wire, satellite and cable. The FCC's jurisdiction covers the 50 states, the District of Columbia, and U.S. possessions. There is a growing controversy as to what the FCC should be responsible for. The first amendment “guarantees” the right to free speech to all citizens. The First Amendment of the United States Constitution protects the right to freedom of religion and freedom of expression from government interference. If this is true, why is the media regulated by the government? Should American citizens have the right to view unfiltered media? This is more of an argument than a research paper, an argument worth fighting over. Our rights are taken away almost daily and no one seems to bat an eye at that fact. The FCC has gotten to the point where they are starting to regulate satellite, subscription radio, such as Sirius and XM Radio. Sirius’s newest bad boy of comedy, Howard Stern, has gotten many fines from the FCC for what they would call “inappropriate conduct” while on cable television. This would include profanity, sexual references, and topics of racism. Now, Howard Stern is on Sirius, a subscription-based radio service that boasts over 3.5 million subscribers. The FCC has sent countless threats to Howard Stern since his arrival to Sirius in January to clean up his act, but he is not unhurried by the threats, and why should he be? Sirius is a subscription service. Its consumers are paying for unfiltered radio and it is clearly stated in the fine print on Sirius’s Terms of Service that profanity and sexual references will occur, so why does the FCC feel that they need to filter the radio DJs and music? This is only one example of filtering that the FCC committed to. The list goes on, from CNN, to MSNNBC. Many internet WebPages are watched by the FCC. Even though the internet technically does not belong to the United States government, the commission feels it has the right to threaten web sites they find offensive with lawsuits. It is only a matter of years before the internet is taxed and the FCC has full right to edit the internet. It could happen. Consider it and fight against it
The Telecommunications Act of 1996 was the first major overhaul of United States telecommunications policy in nearly 62 years, modifying earlier legislation, primarily the Communications Act of 1934, which was the original bill that spawned the FCC, only it just regulated radio. It was approved by the 104th Congress on January 3, 1996. It was signed into law by United States President Bill Clinton on February 8, 1996. The Telecommunications Act of 1996 expanded the FCC’s control to Satellite Television, Cellular phones, and cable television. The FCC is directed by five Commissioners appointed by the President and confirmed by the Senate for 5-year terms, except when filling an unexpired term. The President designates one of the Commissioners to serve as Chairperson. This means that the President could potentially erect “cronyism” and appoint officials that share his way of thinking. The topics that were safe to talk about in 2004 may change in 2009.
There is a loss of rights with the filtering of media. While the FCC believes you “can’t miss what you never saw” when it comes to the Iraq War and Western politics, citizens should fight for their rights to view unfiltered media. As the government gains more control with the Patriot Act – a bill that allows unwarranted advances on “chatter” within the internet and cellular phone calls – it is only a matter of time before other sources of media, such as internet blogs, pornographic webpages, newsites, and political bashing Web Pages could be filtered. The government plans on taxing the internet when they start providing broadband freely to everyone who needs it. It is a win/win situation for the government, because not only do they benefit from a “web tax”, but also from the ability to regulate the internet and what people view, since you would be accessing it with governmental property. Fight for your rights.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
Its that time of year, I guess. Racism discussion time
Here is a topic: Racism. In this article I will type some offensive words. If you have any problems with these words being used by a white male or anyone for that matter, or with the topic of racism [not all of us have open minds, I guess.] don't read on. I don't need that drama.
You see it everyday. Words and actions against a person due to race or religeon. You probably don't step up because you are offended only subconciously, as racial comments are implemented so deep in American media. A "Nigger" here and there on respected television shows and songs, a Jewish joke on America's favorate sitcom, [Yes, it is a religeon, but some people like to classify 'Jewish' as a race. I wonder why...] and even fights that break out on the streets and in schools due to such things as language barriers and a lack of respect for our fellow men and their culture.
Here I am now as the solutionist. The liberal mind. The opinion of the common person. A white male. Why should that matter now? Well, it may produce bias. Bias is really not liable in heated discussions like this and like it or not, that is the truth. Fortunately, I am not biased in race, as I love my fellow man. I have black, white, asian, and hispanic friends and the last thing I would want to do would be to jeopardize those friendships with racial attacks.
Here we go, or here I go, that is.
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The first thing to do in order to completely wipe racism from America is to stop the stereotypes. Not all blacks try to act "gangster", and not all latinos are poor and illegally in America, and not all Asians are trained to hate America. This means that television, music, and the rest of the media needs to stop fueling the stereotypes with bandwagon bandwagon psycology and the association effect. This mountain of burning hate caused by the media is almost too large to douse with knowledge and understanding. Children do watch those MTV videos and one-sided right-winged newsstations and they do encode racial stereotypical thoughts. This segways to my next idea to destroy racism. Quit associating yourselves with stereotypes. Pull up your goddam pants. Stop reading and pull them up now! Done? Ok, read on. Wearing pants that are 5 sizes too large with no belt, so they hang down to your knees is hardly cool. I'd call it disgusting and improper. Oh noes! Bias. Hardly. Some professionals believe that fashion and proper etiquite is universal in all cultures. Would you think having your ass stick out would attract women? The female is very attracted to well-clothed males. Now, watch as she looks at your ass sticking out...hot? Not. I have talked to many females, black and white and the answers are all the same, "I grew out of liking that look when I grew up". Do you think your friends think you are the man for doing it? Chances are that unless they too are slaves to stereotypical fashion, they probably think you are a tool and a bottom-barrel ass-hat. Its gives a bad reputation with atthorities because once again, the associative property is at work and atthorities match sagging pants with long shirts, baseball caps, and bandanas used as "colors" with "violence" and "drugs". Keywords that get countless innocent teens pulled over for what cops assume could be happening. I have had an experience. I have been considered white trash for wearing a sleeveless shirt with a baseball cap in summer night and pulled over, only to have to stand straight up next to a tree while the cop scanned my license. There is no trust, it seems.
Jewelery...ahhh jewlery. Why guys like to wear diamond ear studs and long neck chains confuses me. I associate those things with a totally different and somewhat more appropriate stereotype that I happen to love...WOMEN! There is nothing sexy about wearing types of jewelery that in America, are most of the time worn by the opposite sex.
You may live in one of the most wealthy counties in America, but as soon as you dress like the only thing you own is your image, you become cool, right? Hardly. Your words and actions are what define you as a person in society.
Last thing we need to wipe from our society before racism can offically be swept off the minds of Americans is the language. Words are weapons and provide excuses for violence. When I say "Stop all the words", I am not just refering to the people using them to offend others. I am also refering to a person who uses a word they would find offensive in normal conversation. Take the work "Nigger". People have gotten hurt and killed for saying the word to blacks in ways meant to be offensive. If a race finds a certain slang word or jargon offensive, why do they sometimes use it as often as they do between each other, even at times being a compliment? Listen, if you want to stop the circulation of the word, stop using it yourself. You can't hurt another person because they say a word that you use daily. It is not your race's word. That is descrimination and if it is because of someone'e race, it is racism. Full circle, huh? Interesting. Read on.
Am I saying that everyone should be able to use the words? Of course not. In order to extinguish the words from our vocabulary, we first need to stop saying them. So, if you don't like the words being used, try and stop the words from being used in your own community.
Well, those are some surefire ideas on how to cease racism in America. "Cease rasism". Now that is an oxymron. While there are ways to prevent it, there will always be racism. People like being superior to others and they don't all grasp the concept of equality and at times, use race as a scapegoat to be superior to another. It is primal and instinctive. Can people change from this way of thinking? Not unless we give every racist a labotomy. Racism will always be present in American and in other countries. It has started wars and has killed thousands, even millions of poeple from hate crimes to genocide. There are countless forms of it and because it is too diverse, it is going to be hard to halt. But we cannot simply ignore it. Do what you'd like to prevent racism, but don't ignore it. That is the worst mistake you could make. Worse than the act itself.
You see it everyday. Words and actions against a person due to race or religeon. You probably don't step up because you are offended only subconciously, as racial comments are implemented so deep in American media. A "Nigger" here and there on respected television shows and songs, a Jewish joke on America's favorate sitcom, [Yes, it is a religeon, but some people like to classify 'Jewish' as a race. I wonder why...] and even fights that break out on the streets and in schools due to such things as language barriers and a lack of respect for our fellow men and their culture.
Here I am now as the solutionist. The liberal mind. The opinion of the common person. A white male. Why should that matter now? Well, it may produce bias. Bias is really not liable in heated discussions like this and like it or not, that is the truth. Fortunately, I am not biased in race, as I love my fellow man. I have black, white, asian, and hispanic friends and the last thing I would want to do would be to jeopardize those friendships with racial attacks.
Here we go, or here I go, that is.
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The first thing to do in order to completely wipe racism from America is to stop the stereotypes. Not all blacks try to act "gangster", and not all latinos are poor and illegally in America, and not all Asians are trained to hate America. This means that television, music, and the rest of the media needs to stop fueling the stereotypes with bandwagon bandwagon psycology and the association effect. This mountain of burning hate caused by the media is almost too large to douse with knowledge and understanding. Children do watch those MTV videos and one-sided right-winged newsstations and they do encode racial stereotypical thoughts. This segways to my next idea to destroy racism. Quit associating yourselves with stereotypes. Pull up your goddam pants. Stop reading and pull them up now! Done? Ok, read on. Wearing pants that are 5 sizes too large with no belt, so they hang down to your knees is hardly cool. I'd call it disgusting and improper. Oh noes! Bias. Hardly. Some professionals believe that fashion and proper etiquite is universal in all cultures. Would you think having your ass stick out would attract women? The female is very attracted to well-clothed males. Now, watch as she looks at your ass sticking out...hot? Not. I have talked to many females, black and white and the answers are all the same, "I grew out of liking that look when I grew up". Do you think your friends think you are the man for doing it? Chances are that unless they too are slaves to stereotypical fashion, they probably think you are a tool and a bottom-barrel ass-hat. Its gives a bad reputation with atthorities because once again, the associative property is at work and atthorities match sagging pants with long shirts, baseball caps, and bandanas used as "colors" with "violence" and "drugs". Keywords that get countless innocent teens pulled over for what cops assume could be happening. I have had an experience. I have been considered white trash for wearing a sleeveless shirt with a baseball cap in summer night and pulled over, only to have to stand straight up next to a tree while the cop scanned my license. There is no trust, it seems.
Jewelery...ahhh jewlery. Why guys like to wear diamond ear studs and long neck chains confuses me. I associate those things with a totally different and somewhat more appropriate stereotype that I happen to love...WOMEN! There is nothing sexy about wearing types of jewelery that in America, are most of the time worn by the opposite sex.
You may live in one of the most wealthy counties in America, but as soon as you dress like the only thing you own is your image, you become cool, right? Hardly. Your words and actions are what define you as a person in society.
Last thing we need to wipe from our society before racism can offically be swept off the minds of Americans is the language. Words are weapons and provide excuses for violence. When I say "Stop all the words", I am not just refering to the people using them to offend others. I am also refering to a person who uses a word they would find offensive in normal conversation. Take the work "Nigger". People have gotten hurt and killed for saying the word to blacks in ways meant to be offensive. If a race finds a certain slang word or jargon offensive, why do they sometimes use it as often as they do between each other, even at times being a compliment? Listen, if you want to stop the circulation of the word, stop using it yourself. You can't hurt another person because they say a word that you use daily. It is not your race's word. That is descrimination and if it is because of someone'e race, it is racism. Full circle, huh? Interesting. Read on.
Am I saying that everyone should be able to use the words? Of course not. In order to extinguish the words from our vocabulary, we first need to stop saying them. So, if you don't like the words being used, try and stop the words from being used in your own community.
Well, those are some surefire ideas on how to cease racism in America. "Cease rasism". Now that is an oxymron. While there are ways to prevent it, there will always be racism. People like being superior to others and they don't all grasp the concept of equality and at times, use race as a scapegoat to be superior to another. It is primal and instinctive. Can people change from this way of thinking? Not unless we give every racist a labotomy. Racism will always be present in American and in other countries. It has started wars and has killed thousands, even millions of poeple from hate crimes to genocide. There are countless forms of it and because it is too diverse, it is going to be hard to halt. But we cannot simply ignore it. Do what you'd like to prevent racism, but don't ignore it. That is the worst mistake you could make. Worse than the act itself.
Friday, January 13, 2006
Friday the 13th!
Friday the 13th! -- It's bad luck to: 
- Cut off both ends of a loaf of bread.
- Put new shoes on the table.
- Leave your hat on the bed.
- Walk under a ladder.
- Lean a broom on a bed.
- Open an umbrella indoors.
- Sneeze to your left side.
- Have a black cat cross your path.
- Cut your finger nails on a Friday to avoid a toothache during the month.
- Take candy to a friend during your first visit of the New Year.
- Pick the first violets of spring.
- When you set the table, place the salt down first.
- If you drop a spoon, expect friends to drop by soon.
- If your left hand itches, money will come to you.
- When you move to a new house, take a broom and a loaf of bread with you.
- Put a red bow on a newborn baby.
- Don't sweep dust out the front door or you'll sweep away good luck.
- Make a wish when you see the first robin of spring. If it doesn't fly away before you finish wishing it'll come true.<.li>
- Lopezophobia: Fear of getting a big butt (a.k.a Jennifer Lopez)
- Viagraphobia: Fear of 'it' exploding
- Lispaphobia: Fear of the letter 's'
- Somethingorotherphobia: Fear of vagueness
- According to Smithsonian Magazine "fear of the #13 costs American a billion dollars per year in absenteeism, train and plane cancellations, and reduced commerce on the 13th of the month."
- Fear of Friday the 13th dates back to Nordic Mythology. Many of their thirteenth Gods met with violent deaths, such as Loki, the trickster.
- Ancient Romans regarded the number 13 as a symbol of death, destruction and misfortune.
- Lizzy Borden uttered a total of 13 words at her trial.
- There were 13 original colonies.
- A witches coven consists of 13 members.
- Tarot Card number 13 is the Death Card, depicting the Grim Reaper (although it is read as transition or change and not literal death).
- Hotels rarely have a room number 13. Usually it is called 12a or 14. Same with floors of buildings and the elevators without a #13 button. Highways sometimes will skip exit 13 altogether also.
- There are 13 steps leading to the gallows.
- 13 knots in a hangman's noose.
- 13 feet which the guillotine blade falls.
- The driver of Princess Diana hit pillar #13 at Place de l'Alma when she was killed in Paris, France.
- 13 people, Christ and his 12 disciples, were in attendance at the last supper. This is where the Christian belief ties in, making Friday a believed unlucky day, as the crucifixtion occurred on a Friday.
- Certain ocean liners will be held in dock until after midnight to appease passenger's fears on Friday the 13th.
- British study concluded that even though there were less cars on the road on Friday the 13th (as compared with other Fridays) more accidents were reported.
- Trisadekaphobia is the technical name for fear of Friday the 13th.
- Apollo 13, 1970, the 13th mission launched from pad #39 (13 x 3), mission was aborted, after an explosion occurred in the fuel cell of their service module. The rocket had left launcing pad at 13:13 CST and the date was April 13th.
- Epluribus Unum has 13 letters.
- The US Seal has 13 stars, bars, feathers in the eagle's tail, 13 bars in one claw, 13 olive branches in the other.
- A "quatrorzieme" is a professional 14th guest hired by the French who had only 13 guests in attendance for dinner, who felt that was unlucky.
- A baker's dozen consists of 13 for a reason! So the story goes a witch near Albany, NY demanded 13 items every time she came in to a particular bakery, and one day the old baker could not afford her extra biscuit. She sneered some strange words at the man, and he suffered terrible luck from then on, until he brought her another 13 rolls. After that life was once again easy for the baker and word spread around town. The custom is still sometimes practiced today.
Saturday, January 07, 2006
This just in! Concrete eats denim!
Well today I was going by Abercrombie and Fitch when I realized that they had some cool new polos out. I checked them out and I went through the store and I found the Jeans. Well, I am a Jeans guy. I will wear them in Summer over Shorts and I checked out a cool pair of jeans.
I saw that they were pre washed and sand-paper worned, which made the jeans less casual, easier to rip, and more preppie, which is what I like.
I then saw the price tag.
What did that price tag say?
198 dollars.
Yes. $198.99 cents.
A whole wall of jeans that were all just under 200 dollars. They had holes, were sandpapered, and were worn, and they were 200 dollars.
I was shocked and thought it was a mistype until I saw the other jeans on the wall, which were equally expensive. I looked around some more and found another rack of jeans. Now these jeans had huge knee holes in them and had broken belt straps in the waste to look really worn-in. You couldn't even wear a belt on them right. They wouldn't last more than a month, I thought. The price? Bleh....120 dollars.
Basically, I want to make this statement. If you have ever spent over a hundred dollars on a single pair of Denim jeans for any label, you are stupid. Sorry for the name calling, but really, if you are going to buy a few pairs of cheap jeans for the price of a downpayment of a porsche, you REALLY need to reevaluate what is important to you.
*Also take note that I DID buy 3 pairs of Jeans that day for 38 dollars each at American Eagle. Also take note that he is exploiting the people who buy expensive jeans, because he owns stock in A&F and has ironically gotten enough profit from the stock to buy one pair of A&F jeans.
Saturday, December 31, 2005
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Thought of the Day
"If being an egomaniac means I believe in what I do and in my art or music, then in that respect you can call me that... I believe in what I do, and I'll say it."~John Lennon
Slipping From Authority's Grasp
As I blink..
Seventeen nights of violence and unrest. Over 4,000 cars burned and 700 people arrested. There is no control.
In
Headlines depict the stories of death, racial tension, and the hatred towards authority. During the weeks of violence, news corporations, such as Fox News and USATODAY flashed headlines such as, "More than 30 police hurt has French riots reach over 300 towns. French PM Acknowledges Racial Divide." and "Kids: We hate the police." Even without reading the full story, it is easy to see the fuel behind the fire.
The curfews and constant efforts exerted by government officials and police have calmed the majority of rioters and the violence is drastically decreasing in magnitude. But only half of the questions are answered and only the surface problems have been solved.
Violence due to racial issues only seems commonplace in some countries, but with this new idea of youth involvement and sole leadership comes new struggles in the fucked up government of those few countries. With every generation, new ideas are presented and new standards and methods of existing are practiced. Although seen as controversial and unacceptable in the beginning, society eventually welcomes these new concepts as a way to improve.
It is now a question of what will be this generation's contribution to the evolution of our culture. As students and young adults, they present new challenges for the rest of the world every day. There is no hesitation to share their thoughts, but in this display of courage and determination, they want to be heard and have others actually listened. You see, not every country practices free speech as often as
Clearly evident in the French riots, students are crying out for understanding and are exhibiting their disregard for archaic ways of reprimand. Being looked upon with disappointment and disfavor does not break them. It does not make them want to turn around and right every wrong, apologizing for their actions, whether they are viewed as noble or foolish. This seems to be one of the most concerning issues with the riots in
Maybe if someone would have say down and listened to what they had to say instead of only disciplining, the rioting would have ended sooner. Maybe we as citizens of these great, free nations need to look towards these riots as guidance of a possible future with no free speech, only direct action and paths of violence to gain political support. The authoritative figures in our society will not be able to fall back on the rule book from years past. This generation is paving its way through uncharted territory and the authority attempting to keep the peace must follow in their footsteps.
That is not the say that the effort should be completely one-sided, but this generation is stubborn, as all have been at some point. They will not cease if people are demanding it of them, it is not their nature. They are taught to be independent and with that in mind, they ask that you listen to them. Only then will everyone understand each other.
Friday, November 11, 2005
Breaking up with a friend?
Now I know that every sitcom imaginable has covered this, but how is it really done? How does a person split away from a person they have known for years? Everyone "breaks up" with acquaintances. Acquaintances aren't friends. Friends you would die for. Acquaintances you may not even give a second thought about. Here are some stories of mine that show ways to break up with a friend.
Form # 1
Lets call this old friend of mine "Segan". Now, Segan and I used to be great friends. We played video games, I taught him how to use computers, and before driving was a possibility, we walked long distances to movie theaters and malls, often talking about girls we liked along the way. Now, as high school went on, we started distancing ourselves. He got into preppy clothes, wrestling, and pot and I got into football, excercise, and socially acceptable activities [ No, really]. Now, Segan made his own friends that were of his new nature and to defend his status in his new found group, he would spend weeks without talking to me. At this point, we were hardly friends. The kicker came when he picked fights with my friends. He never was so angry before. He just snapped and punched one of my best friends for opening a shaken up fanta on his prep shirt [Segan shook it up in the first place, the dolt] and he punched my friend in the face and walked away. At that point I lost all respect for him.
This is NOT a way to break up with a friend. I hope Segan figures this out.
Form # 2
I believe we should be gentlemen about it. This doesn't always work. High school is a strange place and people are always on edge about certain subjects, such as bringing a 9mm to school and murdering 5 students. Well, lets just say another friend of mine, who we will call "Steve" tried to get away from an overbearing "friends" named Sean. Now, Sean was the kind of guy who didn't belong anywhere, but being an Irish black jew will probably do that to you. When Steve told Sean he was being overbearing, he threatened him. Threating a person to be your friend is not a way to keep a friend, either. Take note. Eventually, Steve decided it was time to go to Form # 1 and be a total ass to Sean. It worked [of course it works, but it is an assholish thing to do.] and Sean eventually stopped his 11:00 PM calls and constant visiting [thats right folks, he came to Steve's house uninvited almost daily]. A month after they stopped talking, Steve got a rather steamy letter in his mail. It had no stamp, so it must have been hand delivered. Instantly, he knew it was Sean. The letter was a threat. In it, it said the following and I am not making this up:
Form # 1
Lets call this old friend of mine "Segan". Now, Segan and I used to be great friends. We played video games, I taught him how to use computers, and before driving was a possibility, we walked long distances to movie theaters and malls, often talking about girls we liked along the way. Now, as high school went on, we started distancing ourselves. He got into preppy clothes, wrestling, and pot and I got into football, excercise, and socially acceptable activities [ No, really]. Now, Segan made his own friends that were of his new nature and to defend his status in his new found group, he would spend weeks without talking to me. At this point, we were hardly friends. The kicker came when he picked fights with my friends. He never was so angry before. He just snapped and punched one of my best friends for opening a shaken up fanta on his prep shirt [Segan shook it up in the first place, the dolt] and he punched my friend in the face and walked away. At that point I lost all respect for him.
This is NOT a way to break up with a friend. I hope Segan figures this out.
Form # 2
I believe we should be gentlemen about it. This doesn't always work. High school is a strange place and people are always on edge about certain subjects, such as bringing a 9mm to school and murdering 5 students. Well, lets just say another friend of mine, who we will call "Steve" tried to get away from an overbearing "friends" named Sean. Now, Sean was the kind of guy who didn't belong anywhere, but being an Irish black jew will probably do that to you. When Steve told Sean he was being overbearing, he threatened him. Threating a person to be your friend is not a way to keep a friend, either. Take note. Eventually, Steve decided it was time to go to Form # 1 and be a total ass to Sean. It worked [of course it works, but it is an assholish thing to do.] and Sean eventually stopped his 11:00 PM calls and constant visiting [thats right folks, he came to Steve's house uninvited almost daily]. A month after they stopped talking, Steve got a rather steamy letter in his mail. It had no stamp, so it must have been hand delivered. Instantly, he knew it was Sean. The letter was a threat. In it, it said the following and I am not making this up:
Dear Sir,
I would like you to know that I am going to school tomorrow
with my Christmas list and you are at the top.
Unfortunately, my presents aren't wrapped in
paper, but metal jackets.
I would like you to know that I am going to school tomorrow
with my Christmas list and you are at the top.
Unfortunately, my presents aren't wrapped in
paper, but metal jackets.
Steve called the police and the district administrator and Sean was arrested. He had no firearms, but he had a collection of knives, and his paper threats were enough to get him expelled. We don't know where he is right now.
Well, what I think you should do to break up with a friend is simple. Tell them that you have your differences and you think you should move on. Then, shake hands, tell he/she to keep in touch, and walk away. Its that simple, but so many people don't know how to do it! Professionalism is lacking in this world and people often make big deals out of small things. Deciding to end relations with someone should be mutual, but often isn't. Luckily, [given the person is sane and he/she's emotions are intact] time heals all wounds. Better to burn out a relationship quickly than to have it fade away.
Well, what I think you should do to break up with a friend is simple. Tell them that you have your differences and you think you should move on. Then, shake hands, tell he/she to keep in touch, and walk away. Its that simple, but so many people don't know how to do it! Professionalism is lacking in this world and people often make big deals out of small things. Deciding to end relations with someone should be mutual, but often isn't. Luckily, [given the person is sane and he/she's emotions are intact] time heals all wounds. Better to burn out a relationship quickly than to have it fade away.
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